Severe temptations
I need help with understanding the spiritual affliction of having severe temptations. Before last week, the longest of having them was 18hrs straight even when I do my prayers and going to Mass. However, last Wednesday I did something that I think was out of my spiritual jurisdiction and they lasted for more than 48hr. I saw something and I wanted to protect the purity of an elderly priest that I take care of, but I think I took authority when I should of asked Jesus. I go to Mass daily, but when I fall from these severe temptations, I will miss Sunday Mass because of indifference or despair. I go to confession once a week, and have been for more than 4 years. My prayer life does need some work because it lacks consistency and my ability to fast also needs to work, because I really like eating sugary foods. I had to go see my archdiocese exorcist when I was discerning to be a nun because the Abbess thought my spiritual experiences were different and my family history of witchcraft, but that is a very complicated story. He is a sincere and good exorcist, I just ruined everything because of my impatience and lack of wisdom. I went through unbound in Michigan but I'm from Oklahoma City. When I went through unbound, I can testify a great healing I received but my severe temptations began also around this time too. I will go to confession, and everything is peaceful for a couple of days and then they start again. I can pray binding prayers for hrs and nothing happens, but prayers of oppression have helped. I'm wondering if I need to say those prayers every day. Through obedience from my spiritual director, I am permitted to pray the Auxillium Christianorum which have also helped, I do that once a day but am thinking maybe I should do that 3x. I am also, through obedience, have permission to wear an alb and cincture at night, which have helped tremendously. I am a Benedictine Oblate but recieved an inspiration on Holy Thursday to construct a Little Office of reparation, of which I also have permission to pray. I have also experienced demonic vexatious, such as scratches appearing, my entire arm burning until I go to confession, and hearing whispers once which also cause a sensation of burning in my ear. I have had knocking occur on my door (succession of 3's---go figure) without anyone being there. I have had my house blessed twice. I have experienced demonic obsession one time which lasted for three months, but I think it was because I asked God to let me be a victim soul for priests, which I should not have asked for, I went to confession for that. I need help understanding why God is permitting this to happen, I've been having these severe temptations for more than 4 years now, and it's wearing me down, a part of me is becoming resentful towards God because it's isolating that both lay members and priests have regular temptations and I regular temptations for me, is like a vacation compared to the severity of the temptations I get. I'm the only Catholic in my family, on my mom's side they are "witches" and I was into the occult/ divination by age 12 but I repented when I became Catholic. Is there any wisdom you can give me regarding on discerning if there a generational spirit/curse that is causing the severe temptations or if this is my lot that God has given to me by undergoing this kind of spiritual purification.
Christian vs Catholic Impact on Exorcism
Hello Ryan and Father Martins. I absolutely love this show. This question is mainly for Father Martins but Ryan’s perspective might also give some insight. Does the differences between other Christian religions teachings and Catholics ever hinder your ability to do an exorcism or at least a persons openness to one? Has this also caused any issues in the creation of this show?